I'm Past My Expiry Date

Can't help feel that my usefulness at the continent has expired long before I even stepped foot in this place.

Actually, they have the system down pat. Even if Tall Man is going away for a course, his opening gambit, "Ermm, actually nothing to do with you, but really, things are more or less tapering off and under control..." is but a cold welcome to someone who's still figuring out her role in both The Sphere and the continent.

"And besides, you don't have to tell your bosses that I'm giving you extra work. It'll be good exposure for you, you know."

Well, then, I'd rather go back, thank you very much indeed. I don't mind so much the extra work, but rather the extent of my usefulness in a place when you have declared that I'm NOT useful afterall.

But, the bosses think that I'll be doing the continent a power of good if I were to stay on and eke my living there for a month.

Just the other day, my bosses paid me a visit during the regular weekly meeting. At the end of the day, both men asked how I am coping. Managed to smile and say, "learning as much as I can, before Tall Man disappears."

In the end, they waved goodbye to me, feeling that they've left me in good hands.

Watching their retreating backs, I felt that it was kindergarten all over again. Me, the wailing, pensive, petulant child of 5, hating every moment of school, yet unable to flee as my parents have felt that it's the best course of action for me.

Time to sing que sera sera... while keeping myself busy. Bracing myself for any challenges that would come my way...